There is just something about the stretch of road between Gastonia and Atlanta. The drive there brought on so many memories..as I left North Carolina and entered South..I just got so reminiscent about the good old days of college. One of my best friends is from right outside of Atlanta and I would often make this trek with her down to her parents home. We had certain customs that we always had to fulfill on our trips down. It was like an itch that had to be scratched..the first one came as I drove through Gaffney, SC. As I drove past the Watertower that was painted and fashioned like a peach..I saluted it! Every time we drove past the peach it had to be saluted. It was unheard of to not salute the peach. It was a custom that we started freshman year and continued to this day.
As we traveled we always listened to our favorite tunes..in college is was NSYNC, Third Day, Rascal Flats, Kelly Clarkson, etc...this time around I listened to my Glee playlist and various Christmas songs..it was pure bliss. It made the trip bearable. As the I counted down the exits and got closer to the stateline between Georgia and South Carolina..I had to turn on Georgia on my Mind by John Mayer..that was always a custom to play as we crossed over the border..which is always perfect for the situation. I wanted to make it as far as I could so I didn't stop at my usual exit 149 the Commerce exit..but, instead I stopped at 129 when my gas tank glared at me when a red light to state that it was in need of substance..I really regretted not going to Commerce perhaps I wouldn't have had to worry so much had i stopped for gas there.
My Thanksgiving weekend was almost completely perfect. I stayed with my friend at her parent's house just like old times. I got there just before the appetizers on Thursday..I'm on a bit of a limited diet but, I ate what I could because for heaven's sake, ITS THANKSGIVING! We ate way too much, but it was just perfect. The weekend was filled with eating, shopping at 3 am, sleeping in the middle of the day, HARRY POTTER, texting, watching flash mob videos, discussing the awesomeness of Sarah Addison Allen, listening to her father talk which makes me laugh every single time, forced football viewings, (500) days of Summer, walking around a monastery that has an AWESOME bonsai garden (I need to take pictures next time), making cookies, driving around the town blaring various songs including Marry you, Grenade, Just the Way You Are by Bruno Mars, the entire Glee Soundtrack, and then old favorites sprinkled through out the the weekend..ie, we pulled out an old mix cd that I made for her in college named "Mellow Yellow" which was RANDOM. It had everything from Incubus to Kelly Clarkson, to the Beatles, to Knock Three TImes. I don't know what I was thinking when I made that cd..I must have been writing my thesis. The only downfall of the whole weekend is I lost my cell phone. I was completely desperate for it..but, as it turned out I ended up leaving at the CVS around the corner from her house. I didn't find this out until I was almost home...but its okay that I left my phone..It gave me the opportunity to really think about my life, what I want, and what I need to do to get what I want.
As I drove North on 85, and got caught in the aftermath of "rubberneckers" of three different accidents..which actually caused my trip to go from a 3.5 hour trip to over 6 hour ride. I'm exhausted now..but, the ability to travel all those miles without anyone to talk to, it gave me the time to think about what is lacking. This is what I've decided. I need to be surrounded by people who wholeheartedly support me. I don't have that in my life right now. I feel like I need to move to get that support. I do have excellent friends where I live, but they are not selfless. I just think that friendship means to put your friends before yourself when they are in need. I strive to be that way..it hurts to know that I don't have many people surrounding me that have same philosophy. I had a really rough day today, but it could have been so much easier if I had their support. But, I made it through because I did what I had to do..so not going to complain..just going to mentally make a note and start looking for new opportunities. I also thought about how I need to finish my teaching degree..I have to do it for myself. I am never going to be happy or content with myself if I allow myself to just let this opportunity to go away without even trying. So I am going to look into MAT programs, and at least apply..if I can't do it..then at least I can say that I tried. I'm thinking schools in Durham, Georgia, and Maryland. I am so ready for change. With that thought, I need to crash. G'Night.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Chocolate Soy Milk
sounds so good right now. Ever since I found out that I was going to have my gall bladder out, all I can think about is food. Its not like its going to be the end of the world when it is gone, but I know that for a short period I don't think I am going to want to eat anything. I have always been a food lover. I think its my Chicagoland roots. Food is apart of the culture there. We are the birthplace of McDonald's (well, as we know it..not the original food stand, but the chain was started in IL.) Chicago hot dogs, pizza, not to mention just great restaurants everywhere that you go. So how could you not be obsessed with food when you have GOOD food at every corner. I've heard that after you have your gall bladder out, your taste buds change..which could totally be a farce...but still I can't imagine life without my favorite foods. Indian food, popcorn, sushi, spaghetti...taste buds do not change your opinion of these foods! French fries you can go along with pizza..I need to kick both of those habits.
Ultimately, its my poor eating habits that have created the problem with my gall bladder. I hope this surgery can help kick start a healthy relationship with food. Time will only tell..another thing that I love and better not disappear after the surgery..SODA!! Especially...Pepsi Max and Diet 7up. There is just something about the bubbly carbonated sweetness. So, this upcoming week I'm going to go out for indian, eat popcorn when I'm watching some telly, and who knows what else. Who knows how long its going to take me to eat normally without getting sick. Man, I hope this doesn't ruin Thanksgiving (clearly my favorite holiday). I think I'm going to just push through the pain and enjoy the holiday anyways. :D
Ultimately, its my poor eating habits that have created the problem with my gall bladder. I hope this surgery can help kick start a healthy relationship with food. Time will only tell..another thing that I love and better not disappear after the surgery..SODA!! Especially...Pepsi Max and Diet 7up. There is just something about the bubbly carbonated sweetness. So, this upcoming week I'm going to go out for indian, eat popcorn when I'm watching some telly, and who knows what else. Who knows how long its going to take me to eat normally without getting sick. Man, I hope this doesn't ruin Thanksgiving (clearly my favorite holiday). I think I'm going to just push through the pain and enjoy the holiday anyways. :D
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Prompted.
Assignment: Look up your horoscope and write how true it is.
My horoscope via iGoogle:
The Moon links up to sensuous Venus in your personal chart, bringing out your most seductive, pleasure-loving side today. So plan to spend some time with someone close - or to entertain at home, as someone you meet now could play a major role in your existence. Because you are so open, others are drawn to you by your ease and charm and life should go your way.
I was given this prompt by a fellow blogger friend of mine, who was listening to me rant and whine about the fact that no one is following me or reading my posts. She said, "but you don't post often." I told her that I need a purpose to write and I just don't have one right now so she said "look up your horoscope and write how true it is."
I've always loved looking at horoscopes..I remember when I was in middle school, I loved to get Seventeen or YM and read my love horoscope. I would dream and hope that it would come true. It never did, which made me cynical about love and horoscopes in general. So, I was not surprised when I just looked at the horoscope from iGoogle and it basically talked about how I'm going to get lucky tonight. I am all by my lonesome tonight. BUT..perhaps the writer of my horoscope got it wrong by a day. I am going on a blind double date tomorrow..one can hope that this is what the horoscope was referring to as "as someone you meet now could play a major role in your existence." Right? I've only ever been on one other blind date and that was a bit of a disaster. The guy was drunk and smelled like a carton of cigarettes and I swear he was trying to scrape the back of my throat with his tongue..oh why did I let him get that far..so, tomorrow's date should be much more civil. We are going to the Renaissance Festival in CLT which if it doesn't work out, then at least I get to say I finally made it to the Renaissance Festival for the first time in 10 years. So, ask me tomorrow if the horoscope is relevant to my life. Til' then..
My horoscope via iGoogle:
The Moon links up to sensuous Venus in your personal chart, bringing out your most seductive, pleasure-loving side today. So plan to spend some time with someone close - or to entertain at home, as someone you meet now could play a major role in your existence. Because you are so open, others are drawn to you by your ease and charm and life should go your way.
I was given this prompt by a fellow blogger friend of mine, who was listening to me rant and whine about the fact that no one is following me or reading my posts. She said, "but you don't post often." I told her that I need a purpose to write and I just don't have one right now so she said "look up your horoscope and write how true it is."
I've always loved looking at horoscopes..I remember when I was in middle school, I loved to get Seventeen or YM and read my love horoscope. I would dream and hope that it would come true. It never did, which made me cynical about love and horoscopes in general. So, I was not surprised when I just looked at the horoscope from iGoogle and it basically talked about how I'm going to get lucky tonight. I am all by my lonesome tonight. BUT..perhaps the writer of my horoscope got it wrong by a day. I am going on a blind double date tomorrow..one can hope that this is what the horoscope was referring to as "as someone you meet now could play a major role in your existence." Right? I've only ever been on one other blind date and that was a bit of a disaster. The guy was drunk and smelled like a carton of cigarettes and I swear he was trying to scrape the back of my throat with his tongue..oh why did I let him get that far..so, tomorrow's date should be much more civil. We are going to the Renaissance Festival in CLT which if it doesn't work out, then at least I get to say I finally made it to the Renaissance Festival for the first time in 10 years. So, ask me tomorrow if the horoscope is relevant to my life. Til' then..
Monday, October 18, 2010
Revelations & Chai Tea
I've realized:
- my life has revolved around being a people pleaser. I have true anxiety at the idea that someone is made at me or that I have done something wrong. But, I've realized that sometimes even my best is not good enough. I need to stop trying and focus on bettering myself away from the situation.
-I need to move.
-I had a 3rd thing that I realized over the weekend, but now I can't remember because this is my 3rd attempt at writing this blog entry, due to the fact that I accidentally deleted one entry and then was so frustrated with the 2nd that I had to walk away.
-Ahh, yes..I want to start running/walking again. I miss being active and going places. I'm kick starting C25k tonight after work. I'm very excited about it.
so its 6:20 on a very Monday morning. I want to start a new tradition. Getting up early and drinking some tea. I figure it would be good to drink some chai since it is so yummy delicious. I wish I had some scones. I forgot how much I loved Good Earth Chai. I love the flavor, the quote that is at the end of the tea bag that is really inspirational.
"Tis better to be silent and be thought a fool, than to speak and remove all doubt." Abe Lincoln
I have pretty low expectations that I'm going to be able to continue this trend after this morning, but you never know. This weekend was interesting and really made me thing about a few things. First of all, had a disheartening revelation on the friendship front. I got to the breaking point with someone that has made me decide to just stop trying because whatever I do is not good enough. If said person has problems with things that I have done he/she needs to talk to me about instead of giving me the cold shoulder every time I attempted to talk with him/her. I'm tired of trying..I am a people pleaser, but damn...I know I'm not a bad person, I definitely screw up on a regular basis but I'm trying..why isn't that good enough. So, I'm done. I am disentangling myself from said person.
2nd realization. I want to move. I'm feeling restless and I'm pretty much tired of living in the heart of the bible belt. I want to live somewhere that has a little bit more of a diverse opinion on life matters. Religion, politics, etc, etc.. I am tired of being a minority in my opinions...I'm non confrontational...I don't want to have to a discussion about the separation of church and state with my coworkers. I really don't..but, sometimes I just want to scream here. The only problem with this is the fact that I love my job and I love the people that I directly work with. I'll miss both and its kind of scary to think about moving in this day in age since everyone is so, "be thankful that you have a job". I'd like to somewhere new by next summer. The hard part is figuring out where.
Options:
-Maryland (there are expectations there since, my mom is up there)
-Triad (heard its a happening place)
- ATL (I like it down there, but I know, I know..its deeper into the bible belt..but I figure its so big, perhaps I can find my nitch there)
-Chicago...(home, need I say more)
-Washington State (I could be closer to my BFF Amy)
-some place new and random that I have never been, but have always wanted to go
-England (what I would give to live closer to my sis and my nieces)
Lastly, I need to exercise like a freakin I don't know what. a friend from out of town was here..she just looked awesome and her secret was that she runs all the time. It made me miss the times when I was walking all the time this summer. So, I'm going to start training with the Couch to 5k program again. I'm going to start after work tonight. I've looked up different 5k races to do and there is a really cute one in ATL called the jingle jog on Dec. 11. Its a x-masy race where you get to wear jingle bells on your shoes, and santa will be there to cheer everyone on! I need something to motivate me and give me something to focus on.
- my life has revolved around being a people pleaser. I have true anxiety at the idea that someone is made at me or that I have done something wrong. But, I've realized that sometimes even my best is not good enough. I need to stop trying and focus on bettering myself away from the situation.
-I need to move.
-I had a 3rd thing that I realized over the weekend, but now I can't remember because this is my 3rd attempt at writing this blog entry, due to the fact that I accidentally deleted one entry and then was so frustrated with the 2nd that I had to walk away.
-Ahh, yes..I want to start running/walking again. I miss being active and going places. I'm kick starting C25k tonight after work. I'm very excited about it.
so its 6:20 on a very Monday morning. I want to start a new tradition. Getting up early and drinking some tea. I figure it would be good to drink some chai since it is so yummy delicious. I wish I had some scones. I forgot how much I loved Good Earth Chai. I love the flavor, the quote that is at the end of the tea bag that is really inspirational.
"Tis better to be silent and be thought a fool, than to speak and remove all doubt." Abe Lincoln
I have pretty low expectations that I'm going to be able to continue this trend after this morning, but you never know. This weekend was interesting and really made me thing about a few things. First of all, had a disheartening revelation on the friendship front. I got to the breaking point with someone that has made me decide to just stop trying because whatever I do is not good enough. If said person has problems with things that I have done he/she needs to talk to me about instead of giving me the cold shoulder every time I attempted to talk with him/her. I'm tired of trying..I am a people pleaser, but damn...I know I'm not a bad person, I definitely screw up on a regular basis but I'm trying..why isn't that good enough. So, I'm done. I am disentangling myself from said person.
2nd realization. I want to move. I'm feeling restless and I'm pretty much tired of living in the heart of the bible belt. I want to live somewhere that has a little bit more of a diverse opinion on life matters. Religion, politics, etc, etc.. I am tired of being a minority in my opinions...I'm non confrontational...I don't want to have to a discussion about the separation of church and state with my coworkers. I really don't..but, sometimes I just want to scream here. The only problem with this is the fact that I love my job and I love the people that I directly work with. I'll miss both and its kind of scary to think about moving in this day in age since everyone is so, "be thankful that you have a job". I'd like to somewhere new by next summer. The hard part is figuring out where.
Options:
-Maryland (there are expectations there since, my mom is up there)
-Triad (heard its a happening place)
- ATL (I like it down there, but I know, I know..its deeper into the bible belt..but I figure its so big, perhaps I can find my nitch there)
-Chicago...(home, need I say more)
-Washington State (I could be closer to my BFF Amy)
-some place new and random that I have never been, but have always wanted to go
-England (what I would give to live closer to my sis and my nieces)
Lastly, I need to exercise like a freakin I don't know what. a friend from out of town was here..she just looked awesome and her secret was that she runs all the time. It made me miss the times when I was walking all the time this summer. So, I'm going to start training with the Couch to 5k program again. I'm going to start after work tonight. I've looked up different 5k races to do and there is a really cute one in ATL called the jingle jog on Dec. 11. Its a x-masy race where you get to wear jingle bells on your shoes, and santa will be there to cheer everyone on! I need something to motivate me and give me something to focus on.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
total slacker week..
This week, the only form of exercise that I got was when i got to visit my buddy Heishman in Durham...We walked on the East Campus of Duke and walked an easy 3.5 mi...had a hard time walking any other time this week because it was so fricken hot and I was at the mercy of my mom's senior apt complex in maryland. The gym closing at 8 pm each night did not work well with my schedule. I have to admit it was nice being a slacker this week. I am about to fall back into the groove tomorrow though, and walk 14 mi and then 7 on Sun. I'm excited. Other than hanging out with Heishman in Durham..nothing really exciting happened in my world.
Visting my mom is always fun and interesting. Its stressful, because she has dementia and sometimes has meltdowns about stuff that anyone else would be able to handle. Kind of got into it a bit after she asked me 30 times, what the red sauce that came with the breadsticks was...but, I love her all the same and she has to love me when my short fuse goes off. Thats what her dementia is like..its not forgetting people, because for the most part she remembers everyone..she has problems with remembering what's she doing, where she's going, and what things are.
We made plans to go to the National Gallery of Art on Wed, didn't go because we struggled getting ready to go..its alright...I can go again..perhaps I can get a friend to come with me for a visit and we can go off..Side note, I don't know why I haven't visited the National Gallery yet...its free and filled with some of my fav artists...Vermeer, Cassat, Picasso, etc...why haven't I gone? And HELLO, its free!?!?!? So, yeah, can someone please come with me? I'll even throw in another free museum that they seem to have a plenty of in DC..I'm partial to Art and Natural History Museums..but, willing to go to others.
Other than get my hopes up about seeing art, the only other thing that I accomplished was Reading. My aunt gave me a stack of her books to read...which I loved! I read the book that I have been trying to get my hands on for at least a month in less than a day. I read The Girl who Chased the Moon by Sarah Addison Allen..fantastic NC author. love her. In fact going to include link to her website..
Upcoming events to look foward/ dread...
-Fundraiser for the Avon Walk @ Simonetti's Pizza
-Return to Work on the 19th..lots of trainings, mtgs, conferences...FUN Stuff...actually looking foward to it..ready to be back in a routine.
-turning 29 on the 30th of this month...not really looking foward to that, but oh well..
-attempting to find time to make a trip to the beach...looking foward, hoping, praying that it will happen.
-Avon Walk for Breast Cancer..Oct 23-24....still so much fundraising to do!
Visting my mom is always fun and interesting. Its stressful, because she has dementia and sometimes has meltdowns about stuff that anyone else would be able to handle. Kind of got into it a bit after she asked me 30 times, what the red sauce that came with the breadsticks was...but, I love her all the same and she has to love me when my short fuse goes off. Thats what her dementia is like..its not forgetting people, because for the most part she remembers everyone..she has problems with remembering what's she doing, where she's going, and what things are.
We made plans to go to the National Gallery of Art on Wed, didn't go because we struggled getting ready to go..its alright...I can go again..perhaps I can get a friend to come with me for a visit and we can go off..Side note, I don't know why I haven't visited the National Gallery yet...its free and filled with some of my fav artists...Vermeer, Cassat, Picasso, etc...why haven't I gone? And HELLO, its free!?!?!? So, yeah, can someone please come with me? I'll even throw in another free museum that they seem to have a plenty of in DC..I'm partial to Art and Natural History Museums..but, willing to go to others.
Other than get my hopes up about seeing art, the only other thing that I accomplished was Reading. My aunt gave me a stack of her books to read...which I loved! I read the book that I have been trying to get my hands on for at least a month in less than a day. I read The Girl who Chased the Moon by Sarah Addison Allen..fantastic NC author. love her. In fact going to include link to her website..
Upcoming events to look foward/ dread...
-Fundraiser for the Avon Walk @ Simonetti's Pizza
-Return to Work on the 19th..lots of trainings, mtgs, conferences...FUN Stuff...actually looking foward to it..ready to be back in a routine.
-turning 29 on the 30th of this month...not really looking foward to that, but oh well..
-attempting to find time to make a trip to the beach...looking foward, hoping, praying that it will happen.
-Avon Walk for Breast Cancer..Oct 23-24....still so much fundraising to do!
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